So We Lost.

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So it happened – we lost the pitch. I’ve have gone through the variety of emotions of stunned, anger, frustration and grief.  We were given the opportunity to relocate to Dallas, TX so I could work at the main office but decided to turn that down due to cost of living and lack of a good insurance plan. While I would keep my salary…it wouldn’t have the same impact as living here and would serve more as a Band-Aid rather than a long range plan.

This leaves me back at square one. I’ve updated my resume and started to network again. Many of the jobs here are never posted but instead are announced by word of mouth. I hope I can play this game right and have a job in time before I’m officially unemployed in October.

To leave this post on a positive note, Baby M is doing great! We were officially released from our IVF doctor last Friday and will now visit our regular doctor from this point forward. I do realize how lucky we are in all of this. I can replace a job but I cannot replace a child.

I might be losing my job...

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I found out this morning that my agency is up for review with our client and there's a high possibility that I will be unemployed next month. This announcement has completely blindsided me as our review a month earlier was "positive". I've gone through the emotions today of panic, anger and now determined to fight for my job.

Our pitch is in a few weeks on why they should keep us. It bothers me that the client thinks its no big deal to not be honest and tell us what's wrong so we can fix it. I guess they can use that cliche line of "its not business, its personal" but in the end - it is personal.

It's personal because this morning Mr. M and I celebrated the fact that my next paycheck wasn't going to IVF but instead to helping us pay down the parent debt. It's personal because we had just started to looking at homes so when Baby Mathis does arrive, he/she has more room to play in than our 2 bedroom/1 bathroom house.

All of that is now on hold and just because a few arrogant people decided they wanted to make a change on a whim. I'm trying - for the baby's sake - not to stress but I'm not handling this news well at all. I still can't wrap my head around it.

Positive News!

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We're having a baby! The test was positive and now we're in the waiting game of wanting our beta numbers to increase. Our next test is on Thursday and if that goes well, we'll have another one next week.

If you've followed this blog of a while, you know that when I was offered my current job (via the phone) while watching Monty Python's The Holy Grail. We were watching the same movie when we got the call.  It must be the good luck charm for our family.

Test Day...

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So here we are – test day.

Mr. M and I went to the clinic this morning to have my blood drawn to see if our IVF cycle was successful. Yesterday, I broke down and took a pregnancy test and it was POSITIVE! So hopefully this blood test will confirm our dreams of starting a family.

Now we sit by the phone and wait…

Really IRS?

Whoo! A raise!

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I'm getting a raise! Also know as words I have not said since the beginning of the Recession.

Things are rockin' along...

So far, this part of the IVF journey has been pretty positive. We are able to get 8 eggs to mature instead of the 5 that we estimated before the retrieval procedure. Tomorrow morning is our transfer appointment and then we wait.  I guess since we’re novices at this, every bit of news that seems slightly positive is a big deal to us. We’re actually getting excited that this will work and we will indeed have a little come next spring.

On the money front, we’re trying to save a little and pay a little for the next six months. Our focus is on paying back Mr. M’s parents, saving up for a car and saving for our little one.