I might be losing my job...

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I found out this morning that my agency is up for review with our client and there's a high possibility that I will be unemployed next month. This announcement has completely blindsided me as our review a month earlier was "positive". I've gone through the emotions today of panic, anger and now determined to fight for my job.

Our pitch is in a few weeks on why they should keep us. It bothers me that the client thinks its no big deal to not be honest and tell us what's wrong so we can fix it. I guess they can use that cliche line of "its not business, its personal" but in the end - it is personal.

It's personal because this morning Mr. M and I celebrated the fact that my next paycheck wasn't going to IVF but instead to helping us pay down the parent debt. It's personal because we had just started to looking at homes so when Baby Mathis does arrive, he/she has more room to play in than our 2 bedroom/1 bathroom house.

All of that is now on hold and just because a few arrogant people decided they wanted to make a change on a whim. I'm trying - for the baby's sake - not to stress but I'm not handling this news well at all. I still can't wrap my head around it.