Friday, August 31, 2012

How I feel...

How I feel when I sell 3 textbooks on Amazon in one week!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Fork in the Road

My father showed up at my house last week unannounced. It was almost 10 o’clock and there was a pounding on my front door. Luckily, Mr. M wasn’t working late that night and was home to answer the door.

It was surreal like something out of a movie.

I am not sure what he thought he would accomplish by showing up. Maybe a dramatic reunion with me telling him that I can forgive and forget all the ridiculous things he has done to our family in the last two years. Instead, my husband talked to him and told him what his daughters had been saying for years to find help.

Yesterday, I attended my first therapist session and while it was helpful, I did not feel any closure. That session along with three others is paid through the E.A.P. (Employee Assistance Program) and the therapist mentioned that my dad, mother or sisters could come to the next sessions.

I feel like I am at a fork in the road. If I take one path, I can contact my father and provide help in hopes he takes it. But what do I do if he doesn’t take the help? Do I chose the other path and completely cut him off in efforts to protect myself?

Update: I called my father and we are setting up a time to talk to therapist on September 10th. I pray that I picked the right path to take and this doesn't blow up in my face.

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

Future Appointments


I called my office’s EAP program today to set up a counseling appointment. Last night I hit an emotional wall as I do agree that y’all are right – I should/need to forgive him but how do I ensure that I don’t continue to enable his behavior. Last year, I created a family contract asking mainly to go to counseling along with a Dave Ramsey class (paid for by Mr. M and myself) and he signed it. Now he’s taking money from my baby sister, up to his eyes in debt from pay day loans and STILL talking to the twit.

Needless to say – I am disappointed as well as embarrassed. I have always thought of my parents as role models as they may not be perfect but they were mine. Now I don’t who these people are which is why I am going the counseling route. My work provides four free sessions and I hope they provide me with some peace.

Monday, August 13, 2012

Dad is back.

My dad sent me a text this morning asking if we could meet for lunch on Wednesday. Since the revelation back in June that he never truly gave up his “mistress” last year, I’ve ended all contact with him. This past weekend he sent an email, called and text about meeting up and I don’t know if I’m ready for it yet.

Is that being a selfish kid?

These past weeks, the PG Olympic parent commercials have made me cry. That bond between parent and child has been obliterated by the acts that were not of my choosing.

Internally, I am conflicted spiritually. I know that I should honor my father and mother but what do you do when they stop acting like parents? Does God still have that same expectation for me no matter the circumstances? Affairs, I realize, are common in the U.S. and that I am not the only person dealing with its affects BUT I do not feel that I should follow the footsteps of others and sweep the incident into the “it will be okay” pile. Why? Because it won’t be okay as I may forgive overtime but I cannot truthfully say that I can honestly forget.

So unsure of what my next steps should be…

Thursday, August 9, 2012


Super excited this afternoon when I found out that I made a 4.0 in grad school! This has been the most insane semester yet (I had one teacher deported) and I am very thankful that it is over.

Friday, August 3, 2012


Since I drive go bit for my job (this week alone was nearly 800 miles in three days), I love when I can find technology that helps me get to my location efficiently. When I discovered this little unknown app called “Waze”, Mr. M and I tried it on our vacation to Florida early this summer.

The way it works is pretty simple. Once you download the app, you can input the place where you plan to travel to and it not only gives you directions like a GPS but it tells you were accidents, traffic and police are along your route. Best of all – it’s free!

I was not asked to write this recommendation (or paid) but thought that this was a great way to save money (aka not get a ticket) while you travel. Here’s a video that shows some of their new features.